I did not arrive here through curiosity alone.

My path into intimacy, embodiment, and conscious kink was forged through rupture, through periods where my body spoke in pain long before my mind was ready to listen. Years of emotional trauma eventually surfaced as chronic pelvic pain, forcing a reckoning with the way my body had learned to protect itself through contraction, silence, and distance from desire.

What became clear slowly was this:
the body does not shut down without intelligence.

When I stopped trying to override my symptoms or “fix” my sexuality, I began listening instead. Beneath the pain was not absence, but a tightly held erotic intelligence that required safety, patience, and reverence to emerge.

Embodiment was the first doorway. Learning to track sensation without agenda reintroduced me to my body as a place of information rather than betrayal. Nervous system attunement taught me that safety is not conceptual, it is lived, moment to moment. From that ground, desire began to return without force.

Conscious kink and power dynamics revealed another layer. When approached with consent and attunement, they became containers where intensity could be held without overwhelm, where surrender could coexist with sovereignty, and where erotic charge supported regulation rather than fragmentation.

This was not about chasing sensation.
It was about learning how to stay present at the edge.

What transformed my relationship with intimacy was not technique, but discernment, knowing when to lean in, when to pause, and how to remain with myself when desire, fear, grief, and arousal shared the same breath.

That lived experience now sits alongside my training in psychology, somatic practice, and sex & relationship coaching. But theory has never been the heart of this work.

The heart of this work is knowing what it feels like to come back to the body after disconnection and how to hold that return with care.